(I originally posted these notes on my "Dharma Killing Tiger" Website in response to ferocious and constant attacks on my Twitter account by a cult group devoted to a particular insane Tulku in the autumn of 2009. The nature of Zen is "either you get it, or you don't." Sadly, they didn't get it.)
नमः समन्त वज्राणां चण्ड महारोषण स्फोटय हूं त्रट हां मां
na maḥ sa maṃ ta va jrā nāṃ caṃ ḍa ma hā ro ṣa ṇa spho ṭa ya hūṃ traṭ hāṃ māṃ
namaḥ samanta vajrānāṃ caṇḍa mahāroṣaṇa sphoṭaya hūṃ traṭ hāṃ māṃ
WELCOME TO MY "CAVE OF ILLUMINATIONS" --
I HOPE YOU WILL FIND SOMETHING HERE TO HELP YOU CLARIFY ORIGINAL MIND
"Dharma-killing Tiger:/stick your head in its maw to ask the question/what is my 'true self' (honshin)"
"a clear bell ringing in the unmoving, empty sky" /this page is dedicated to Clara Llum Roshi
NAMO GURU DEVA DAKINI SARVA SIDDHI HUNG
Please skip the following note if you are here in a state of open and childlike curiosity; read it if you came with a greedy, judging mind
"THE GREAT DRAGON LOVING GIFTED [ONE]", a Sage/Deity born spontaneously from the Womb of the Great Tao, watches over this site both wrathfully and lovingly - this Inconceivable Being is wrathful to the malicious intent of who would try to harm and meddle, loving to the Great Nature, the Golden Vastness we all fundamentally are - OM AH HUNG NAMO GURU DEVA DAKINI SARVA SIDDHI HUNG! Tiger-Spirit Zen has a special inner relationship with this power. Such is the Directly Realized Mind Transmission that omits nothing, not even mountains and clouds.
If your mind is at all impure you will consider this note a threat. If your mind is bewildered you will consider it a bewilderment. If your mind is scheming, you will consider this a scheme. If your mind is doubting, you will doubt it. If your mind is clear, you will see the clarity-- and laugh with joy.
Q/A 1. "WHAT QUALIFIES YOU TO TEACH?"
This page takes a nonreligious, nonsectarian stance: the welcoming nature of true Zen! "Making snowmen, lumps of coal for eyes/carrot for a nose:/Broomstick to sweep away false deluded mind/What fun at night, to hear the wind howling in the deep eaves!" All are welcome, all can learn, all can teach, all can love and rejoice. "People who are obsessed with teachers will never realize It." What is "It"? "It" is just your open original Mind Nature. I am not saying anything especially shocking here. This was said by Bodhidharma and by all the Chinese Zen Masters. "If I am wrong, all the Chan Masters are wrong!/Bodhidharma glares at you with wrathful eyes!" "Sudden" or "Instantaneous" Enlightenment is the Fundamental Way. Clarifying is hard work and comes afterward. Bodhidharma was already Enlightened when he sat down to face a wall for nine years. No teacher can give you this: the Mind-Seal is everywhere. No teacher of any lineage can promise you Enlightenment by their power; Enlightenment will come only when you yourself make the supreme effort to shatter thinking, see the starry sky at noon. Why would you believe anyone who promises to give you what you deeply and inherently already have? Hilarious, right?
Some teachers merely drain their students of both ki-energy and money in order to further their own regrettably very selfish and scheming types of practice. They then use their ki-drained, zombie like "students" as "foot" soldiers to try to harry and bewilder other Dharma teachers of different lineages and traditions, or no-lineages and no-traditions. This is really pathetic! Give up your complicated schemes, make the supreme effort on your own, shatter "thinking" and revel in the freshness of your Supreme Awareness! "Grand weather we're having, isn't it?:/Come out to play!"
THE WAY OF DIRECT REALIZATION OF INTRINSIC MIND VASTER THAN ALL SPACE
Tiger Spirit Says, and I quote:
LOOK INTO YOUR OWN MIND:
INQUIRE OF WHAT YOU REALLY ARE!
MONKS AND TULKUS CAN'T DO THIS FOR YOU
NO MATTER HOW GOOD THE INCENSE SMELLS
OR HOW MANY PRAYER-WHEELS THEY SPIN
OR HOW MANY ZEN STICKS THEY BREAK OVER YOUR STUPID SKULL!
YOU'VE GOT TO SORT THIS SHIT OUT FOR YOURSELF!
Q/A 2 "ARE YOU SAYING YOU ARE ENLIGHTENED? WHAT SHIT! MY TEACHER SAYS YOU CAN'T POSSIBLY BE, THAT YOU'RE JUST A WHEEDLING CON ARTIST!"
I have a humble saying for you: "Instead of asking of me why I am think I am Enlightened/ you should ask yourself why you think you're not Enlightened!" Can your teacher answer that one for you? Thought not. Stare at a wall until your eyes bug out, answer it yourself! "Overnight, water freezes to ice in a tin pail/Aeons of samsara result from trying to harm anybody./Hell-beings are Buddhas, but they have a long way to go to realize it!" Satori is Mind chewing on Mind. That's one tasty radish!
Clarifying your nature takes time. People you meet along the way are very beautiful. Others may try to get in your way a little. The Vast Heart isn't free of dust. It loves dust. It loves to dance with dust motes.
Cure your Mind of the sickness of thinking, and the Original Mind Nature is like this: BONG . . . BONG . . . BONG . . . No beginning, no ending, no middle. Every "Mind moment" is like a great big iron bell bonging in the "Empty Sky" -- complete, total, perfect, why meddle with it? It just resounds and brings joy. It doesn't do anything else.
Don't cling to the past moments. Don't yearn for the "brighter day" tomorrow that will never conform to your made up ideas. It's all just Thus. What's the problem?
When something happens to me I look at it clearly. I don't try to react. I don't pretend anything. I don't take the blame or the praise. I am just right there, yet in another sense ten billion miles away -- bowing to the cold wind in ten directions, hair made of bronze.
Hail Buddhas! Hail ordinary confused people! You're all A-Okay in my book. When you sleep, sometimes your pillow gets dirty.
Shake the snow out of your hair and wake up, okay?